@brittarnhild
I have been retired for more than 4 years now.
I love retirement. I love the freedom, the white canvases stretching ahead of me every morning when I wake up, the long meals and coffee breaks, the freedom, the everything. I love it, and still, somehow, it can still be challenging to come to terms with. What now? Is this all?
I have more than enough to fill my days. I have my family, my garden, my books, my hikes, my friends, my knitting, my writing, my painting, my piano, I cook and I bake, I travel.......you name it. Still, especially at nights, dark thoughts tend to find their way into my brain. Is this all?
When these thoughts come, the easiest way out of them is to fill my time with more activities. There are always more books to read, more knitting to be done, more hikes to do.......
.....but then again....... What now?, Is this all?
Well, do I really have to do all what I do? Do we really have to do all what we do?
Putting a WE instead of an I into the question is helping me to see that I am a daughter of our western world. Value measured in what we do, not what we are.
No, this is not all!
There is more to it.
I live. I am loved.
We live. We are loved.
I believe in a God who has created our world. Who has created me.
There is a meaning somewhere.......or actually, there is a meaning here and now.
My life is meaningful.
Our lives are meaningful.
Not because of what we do. Not because of what we are.
Life is meaningful because we are!
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When these thoughts are thought, I walk out in the garden, out in the woods, up the hill.
To pick flowers.
I know that questions will come again, and I will continue to pick flowers for as lone as I live.
Hopefully.
And when I can't manage to pick flowers anymore, I still am!
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